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no matter how hard i tried to do well in school or to be a good person, it seemed like my homeliness and lack of pulchritude was all that mattered. and now, even though i spent hours and hours and hours on a problem set, working with classmates, meeting with a TA, spending every waking moment trying to solve the problems in my head, waking up with it being the first thing i think about in the morning and trying to solve it some more before i even get out of bed, it wasn't good enough. and it's not the letter of the grade that mattered, because i would have been ok if other people did as bad, but i got one of the lowest, if not THE lowest, grade in the class.

you don't know me, you don't even care. you don't know me, you don't wear my chains.